Mother's Day was Yesterday

The conservative ideas of a mongrel have my mind in total chaotic state. I am confused. I stay confused and rarely find my way out of so lost a state of mind. I'm not into this at all and I find myself lonely and frightened. I go on. The way I'm doing now. I go on and I still try to just write through the emotional let downs. Emotions running very high right now. It's about that time. The magical time is when I am about to get to do something I like doing. And this time of this day is fast approaching. Happy belated Mother's day. I miss you. I love you and I see you in my minds eye. I try talking to you, like I talk to Jesus, in my mind. I was a the grave today, but I'm not much on grave yards. Please forgive me for not being there more often. I'm sorry. I love you Mama and I miss you. If you can put in a good word for me, please help me find peace.