Mithril and Being Out

The night, last night, could have been better. I invited two people to spend the evening with me-
to see Mithril and enjoy their music with me, but I was roundly rejected. I ought to be used to that by now. I seem to simply refuse to believe it will happen again and I dive right in for more of the same. When will I learn?

I went on my own. I met a cousin and his wife there and we enjoyed the Celtic; "Here Comes St Patrick's Day" show. I had not seen Mithril, but had always heard great things about them. I was not disappointed. Their show is spot on and full of energy. I was thrilled to be there and I was also thrilled to hear their special guest, Adrian Duncan. He is from Halifax, Nova Scotia. His music and the talk he gave made me want to visit the place and hear more about it.

The Laidlaw Performing Arts center on the campus of the University of South Alabama was a pleasure and a delight as well. My first time there too last night. It was full of people who, like Vic, Donna and I were thrilled to have found our way there to see the show. Not one of the Mithril four missed a beat that I could tell. Being of Irish heritage, I was not at all disappointed in the way the music was performed or presented and that may be because I am none the wiser, or because i was so starved for the live, acoustic sounds I enjoyed on that stage last night. The uniqueness of the experience with Adrian Duncan, made the night special and everyone in town who was not there last night missed out on a very special show.

My aloneness is my own fault. I blame myself for the undesirable nature I have created for myself. I have to believe that I am to blame. How could anyone else be? I am at the time in my life where my aloneness is not acceptable to me. I am about to go on this journey alone into my
own soul to try to figure out where in this God Almighty world I am supposed to be. I had hoped that would be with someone, but I am beginning to believe I am not suited to live with another soul. I am supposed to be alone and so, I am.