Soul and Spirit

Today was kind of long. May have been because I am so tired.

Too many days in a row will kill the spirit and the soul suffers too.

I would rather have a little better, less harried life, but that's not in the cards.

I got to call a friend today--a new friend--one I have never heard of before today.

We talked about genealogy and people long dead that we may or may not be related to.

I'm not related to her and she's not to me, but we are related in the sense that we are interested

in our pasts.

I hope to meet her some day and plunder a cemetery or two with her.

We'll talk and teach one another a thing or two about our selves.

Learning is the key. It will not save your life, but make it more interesting.

And i heard from another one today and it made me think back.

About how I miss her and wish I was not as lonely.

She sent me a virtual hug and while I think that's nice--I need a real one too.

I need to feel another heart right next to mine. A heart that cares and really wants to be there.

Not a heart that feels obliged to feel.

Not one the saints have not placed there for me to Love.

And she left me broken and shattered once again.

Same way she has done so many times before. I am so hurt, so tired from the turning away they do.

I am so tired and I still can't sleep.

WPCannon

03 February 2010

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Mount Vernon Public Library