Having it Out with Myself

If many remedies are prescribed for an illness, you may

    be certain that the illness has no cure.

                        A.P. Chekhov, The Cherry Orchard

...or, shall I compare thee to the brambles and briars
of my life?
The complications, the wheelbarrows full of mulch?
The old buildings I scrape and paint?
The confusion and complications in not knowing
ways you make me feel some days when I was sure
everything was going well, but now I know it's not;
but I don't know why.

The maddening knots we tie ourselves into
the suddenness of wanting to be alone
the compulsion to lash out
the late feelings of guilt and sorrow
the empathy
the pain
of being alone and with you
at the same time,
but not knowing why?

‎...or, shall I compare thee to baseball
the summer sun, or
cold beer in the shade
of beach umbrellas
as the breeze
from all my past summers
containing the sameness,
the tallow of tanning lotions
the sand filling up with waves
of memories as high tide
washes in...

Oh, summer's day complete
this ideal dream
your close
heart beats in harmony
with mine.

...or, a spring evening
on the back porch of my life
feeling a damp coolness
sweeping up from the creek
out of the woods
across the garden
&
into my bones
while I smile an illegal smile
the kind Grand Marnier
will stem, but only
when I let it.

Journal Entry: 23 June 2014 A Mid Summer Night's Dream

I was back at driving; on a bus.
A scheduled run,
from where and to where,
I had not a clue.

I have longed
to be back at driving
the dream made this;
impossible, I know.

Lost souls always
remain lost and
fitful after short
Mid Summer night's sleep.

Lost most of the trip
naked at the wheel,
I find life leaving me behind.
A bus stop on wheels.

Where will this next
long day lead?
To a slightly longer night
I plead.

WPCannon
Havana, Florida
23June2014

Journal Post: 22 June 2014

I was going to write tonight about today, but instead, no, I'm going to bed.Depressed people Love to sleep.

Shadow's Day Away

I dropped Shadow kitty off at a neutering clinic.
Shadow, the saddest cat I have ever known.
All the way home,
with Shadow on my mind,
I searched through emotions
for the poetry in Shadow's plight.
And when I arrived back at our house
there, four other cats were looking at me
wanting to know why;
and what had become of Shadow?

While we wait on Shadow’s return,
Avery, Alex, Ming, Yoda and I
are searching for a way
to write our worry away.
Looking for poetry
in everything!

Haiku for Shadow:

Shadow's day away
stressful, unnecessary
mister sprays no more.

Looking, still, for something to do!

Dear Friends and Neighbors in North Florida, I am new to the region and I am looking for work. What do I want to do? I want to contribute to this community. I want to work and I want to continue my education while I contribute to my parish, community and family. If anyone who reads this knows of anyone who needs a good, reliable, honest, dependable employee, please let me know. I am willing to share my resume and contact information with anyone who wants to see it. my email address: cannonw59@yahoo.com

I am 55 years old and I believe I have 10-15 good years still to work. I have been won over by the North Florida woods. I came here a year ago and I have been trying, on my own, to find a job utilizing on line job boards. I have had two interviews, but no job offers.

I moved to Havana from North Mobile County, Alabama in late May of 2013. I have come to Love the region and I have become a big fan of Tallahassee and the natural beauty of the area. The woods are filled with history and beauty. I adore the way the canopy roads are being preserved. I hope to explore more, but in order to do that I need to work, earn a living and have money to invest in investigating more of these woods and water ways.

I enjoy living close to Florida State University. I enjoyed baseball at Howser Stadium this Spring. The University is a wonderful resource and I would Love taking advantage of this educational resource to further my education. I wish I was a Librarian. I ought to have been a Librarian. I found  that out while serving as Vice President of the Mount Vernon (Alabama) Friends of the Library. During my tenure there we moved our Library into a new facility and I was drafted to assist a volunteer Librarian in cataloging the collection after the move. It was during that time that I found my true calling. I Love being in a building surrounded by books and information. I enjoyed being a part of that community and learning from a gracious and generous soul, my favorite Librarian, Angela Roberts. Bless her Heart for her generosity and willingness to share her knowledge with me. I will never forget those months we worked together moving the Mount Vernon Public Library. The Friends wrote Grants and secured funding to provide the community with a state of the art Technology Center inside the Library. The Friends also found funding to hire and pay a Library Director until the Town was able to hire a Librarian. These things all seemed to fall into place before my very eyes, as if by divine decree.

I hope to take advantage of FSU's college of information sciences while I am here. I look forward to learning new things every day. I have began by returning to school at Tallahassee Community College for a ASQ course through the Workforce Development Program. I am looking forward to putting some of that new knowledge to work in a  practical setting as soon as I find a new job. 

Peace&Love!